Wednesday night the left sided migraine went away. I was so glad, because I had to represent myself in court on Thursday.
Ahh, but of course, by the time I got to court the right side of my head and face, with the ear ringing, blurry vision with stomata was in full force. Migraineurs typically wouldn't lift a finger to start a fight on a good day, and certainly not when my head, my brain is not in a mood to think.
The previous week, with my head & face pounding on the right side, I had to call the court clerk, ask a couple of important questions. And, of course, by the time I was supposed to call back, my headache had reached peak, meds kicking in, and the exhaustion caused me to fall asleep, missing the time I was supposed to call.
Every time I was in court, I had horrible migraines, due to quake activity, and didn't complain once. They didn't know that I could barely see straight.
Sad, but true, that even in this day and age, people without chronic pain, without migraines, still belittle those of us who hurt, hurt terribly, and often, due to heredity, usually on the maternal side. Even educated, otherwise good people, make fun of someone who says they have a migraine.
It isn't funny. It isn't an excuse. In fact, in can be life threatening. I watched my grandmother's migraines sucking the energy out of her.
For me, after 55 years of feeling like someone is pounding a hammer across one side of my head and face, or the other, in the same place, with every heartbeat, 4 or 5 days out of every week, I am exhausted. The day after , the exhaustion and stomach pain from the meds is like having the 24 hour flu.
And then the next round of bombings, or earthquakes start the migraine cycle all over again.
I don't have to tell any of you with severe and frequent migraines this, but what the hell. Maybe you'll feel better knowing you aren't alone with your pain, and the depression it causes.
Okay, now that I have ranted, I feel better, I think. There is a point here.
I'm one of those with severe and frequent migraines, with facial neuralgia, ear pain, eye pain, and sometimes the roots of my hair hurts, and so do my eyelashes.
75% of the time I also have neck, upper back, and should pain.
If it's volcanic, add in stomach upsets.
Then, like most migraineurs, the hours or day in between migraines, is nothing but filled with the exhaustion of enduring days of pain.
The sad fact is , most of us have relatives who relish in our pain. It's a chance to take advantage of us. It's a chance to make us appear to be full of excuses. I saw my grandmother go through it, and now it's me.
If we are lucky, our parents know and understand, or maybe a relative who has suffered this lifelong pain.
If you are in this situation, with relatives, especially siblings , who's behavior towards you seems a little off, it probably is. Watch you backs. Make a mental note of it.
Tonight, Sunday, is headache free. I praying for a week or two like this. If I could have that, they wouldn't want to face me in court.
Have a good week all !
Post up your
'This Happened When I Had A Migraine" rant. Get it out of your system. If people around you take your chronic, lifelong pain lightly, treat you with sarcasm, you will have to be the one who is understanding of their lack of compassion, and education on the subject of genetic disabilities, chronic pain, the damage it does to you, the lesions it puts on your brain.
Seems like it should be the other way around, but it isn't.
so, rant to heart's content. You'll feel better, really.